I am so FAT. I can’t believe I let this happen to me, oh my fucking god. I was just getting skinny and then I pissed it all up the wall and now I have to do all that all over again, I’m never letting myself gain weight again not for the rest of my life, once I’m underweight again I must stay put there for EVER. Preferably below 17.5, I can not let myself get fat again, not ever, this feeling is so horrible.
